Nystalia

2010-08-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

You no longer need me, still the same as before, no changes. What you expect from me? I am wondering, your back is in the pain, I pasted the plaster for you, then you have more pain, you just keep shouting pain and pain. I offered to paste the plaster again and you refused, then crawled to on the PC and logging in to your facebook complaint about me just know how sleep. Ask yourself when I offered you to paste the plaster what you do? Giving me attitude and refuse to paste. A while later, you take out the plaster and went off to nowhere. So does that mean whatever I do you don't appreciate it? You did the same thing twice already and that is 3 days ago. It is the same situation. You still keep demanding for things, whatever you want you must get it done. I never ask for much from you. I never ask demanding things at all. Is that how you treated me again? Like a piece of toy, you like it, you hug it, you don't like it, you throw to one side. What I get is nothing for now. Everything I do at least I want to get appreciated. Don't like it just tell me. You just have to take care yourself and help yourself first before I do. If you don't even want to do that whatever I do will be back to square one, nothing is done. What for I made so much effort for you yet you are not appreciating? I give you whatever I can, even through you don't know how tired I am, I just want you to be happy, that's all. Spare a thought for me and you will understand. Whenever you are not happy naturally I won't be also, this just make myself feel bad at the same time, I seeking all the ways to make you happy but none works. Remember the past how are we being happy together? Think of it you will know why, go through the hardship first before we can enjoy. Now we are at nowhere, staying put and seeing others moving forward to their goals. So what if they have their holidays? Going to Taiwan, Japan, Hong Kong or whatever, we can go to, is whether want to achieve it or not. Everything is hardship, there's no shortcut. To win, first you must win yourself, there's is always others that is better. If you can't even win yourself how you going to win others? Naturally you yourself will win if you make the efforts to win yourself. Accept all the criticism and try to change your bad habit. No one is stopping you being good, neither to the worst. My responsibility is to stop all the bad habit and make yourself a better person. You too have the same responsibility, keeping eye of me. No one is perfect, what's make every individual unique is the imperfection. There is always a reason behind for everything. Love is always blind and changing. Serious relationship is plan about the future and tackle the problems away, not making a simple problem complicated ones.

2010-07-02T10:24:00.000+08:00

Disappointment, disappointment and more disappointment. Same old things happen again. Is that the way you handle your job? Is that the way you treat me, burdening me like as if I can take up all your nonsense, that is not the way you treat me. What I am to you? An object that allows you to do whatever you want then throw aside is it? An ATM machine? Used up all my resource and when it's dried up, you throw me aside? Always like to waste my time, spoil the plans, do whatever you should not do. You never admit mistakes that is what I can see. Your ego is much more important than anything else. You don't even think of me first, always think about yourself. Whatever you promised me you did not even try to do it. Giving up and letting me feel so down. I already lost confidence in you when you talk a topic as not supposed to. Recently same thing happens but difference person, I made thing very clear yet still happens. I really hates you. Everytime same things happens. I supposed to reach school at 8.20am today. After sending your workplace wasting my $2.50 on ERP, fuel and time and what you give me? Your attitude! You can give me a call, why not call them also? Your superior called you wanted to talk to you, you don't even bother to answer. Throwing tantrum at me as if I am punching bag. If I am this to you I don't want to be together with you anymore, it just burdens me too much and you won't change for the better. Please step out of my life. You no longer the Gina I known.

2010-06-19T00:10:00.003+08:00

今日は6ヶ月一緒にされている、我々は叫んだ、我々は口論、我々は笑った。私たちはお互いの世話をするたびに、まだ自分を表現しないでください。我々は多くの多くの浮き沈みをまだ我々はまだ存続さ行って。私は、私たちが一瞬一瞬を覚えれます。時間は十分に私達のため、私はあなたと一緒に、まだあなたが最もも私たちがけんかやものを愛するすることはありません。愛がハード私達のためですが、私たち一緒に作ったことがあります。それが私たちの心です。いずれか1つが貢献を続けるのなら、それは愛もう呼び出されません。良い時代が私には理解に合格したが、私はまた戻って欲しい、あなたも。私たちは常に良い時間ができると信じて。ただ自分を信じてチャンスを史上最高にお互いを与える。離れて、過去を入れて改めて紙の空白部分のように起動します。私はいつも、私は後ろだけでなく、あなたの前に必ず私は、ときに離れている場合を参照して、私は空から、お客様の安全のすべてを確実に探している。私はあなたが大好きです。私は何を私が果たすことができない約束はありません。あなたは私と一緒にがっかりするかもしれないが、私は常にいつでも私は可能な限り最高を与える。あなたは私を失望させるかもしれないが、これまでで最高です。何も最適です。
あなたの日..で一日を愛する私は幸運を知っているけど、あなたに会えてラッキーていないことを言わなければならない後半！にもかかわらず、我々はまだ一緒にいる。

Today is the 6th month being together, we cried, we quarreled, we laughed. Every time we cared for each other yet do not express ourselves. We been gone through many many downs yet we are still surviving. I will remember what we did every moment. Time is never enough for us, I just want to be with you, yet loving you the most even we quarrel or whatsoever. Love is hard for us but there's things that made us together. That is our heart. If either one of one keep on contributing, it is not called love anymore. Good times have passed I understand but I also want it back, you too. I believe we can have good times always. Just believe in ourselves and give each other a chance to be the best ever. Put the past away, starts anew like a blank piece of paper. I always said, I am behind you as well and in front of you whenever I see you, when you are away, I looking from the sky, ensuring your safety everything. I love you. I don't promise anything that I can't fulfill. You may be disappointed with me, but I always giving the best whenever I can. You are the best ever although you may disappoint me. Nothing is perfect.

Loving you day by day.. I must say I am lucky to know you, but not lucky to meet you that late! nevertheless, we are still together.

2010-06-10T01:16:00.000+08:00

should i be disappointed? angry? frustrated? sad? i don't know. Things just doesn't seem to get well for both of us. Yes, it should be sleeping time. I asked her to get some sleep but she just want to pick a topic to quarrel with me. And the topic is about housework. Everything just seems that I didn't contribute at all. Washing laundry every weekend, clean up the room, dust etc. Sweeping the floor and changing of bed sheet we have fair share of it, she washed the fans, iron my clothes. Just because she started to cook recently. Started to claim everything she do. She wash the plates and I am the one who rinse it also ensuring it's clean, and claim that she washed everything. It's totally unfair for me.

Worst still is have the guts to shout at me, being angry with me. I hate that, she don't even have rights to do that. She said she had enough of me, okay, it's fine, let's go separate way. It just feel meaningless to continue the relationship. Paying 140 bucks for my lenses. So what if she pays? I being feeding her for the past 2 months. That cost even more for sure. Attitude is just incorrigible.

Just wanted to have some sleep it becomes so difficult. I don't wish to continue this kind of relationship. It just too tiring for me. Whatever you have done is done, cannot be returned or anything, given many chances you still blew it. She showed me that she can't regain the confidence that I wanted. I lost confidence 5 weeks ago with a very bad things happen, forgiving her is not a problem as I did it, but the confidence I lost couldn't recover back, and she is making thing worse.

Really, I just love her, I left no choice have to do it, it is just too unmature for her to behave like this, she is not ready yet.

P.S "When you are ready I will be back to you, you belongs to me"

2010-05-20T13:07:00.002+08:00

Totally no mood today. First of all, again and again, I woke up late. Being told off of not taking care of her. Asking me "Why leaves me?". I GOT TO WORK UNDERSTAND OR NOT? Then called me in the morning tell me pain, pain and pain. Then I received 2nd call while I am doing work, I answered the phone and only hear "Pain.. Pain". It just makes me fed up and purely wasting my time by hearing you shouting pain. I know you are in pain, take a rest and bear with it. What else you want me to do? Wanted to buy you medicine you tell me no use again. Ask you to eat you still told me too painful to eat. I not going to repeat myself anymore. 3rd time called me I did not answered.. Why? If I answer I will hear the same old thing again! Told you that you called me earlier and you said don't have. Accusing me that I don't believe in you. Hey, is YOU WHO DON'T BELIEVE WHAT I SAID. Never check your phone then saying that I lie to you lah?

Last night even worse. Told me something that I never want/wished to hear. Still can say it's a joke? If I tell you the same thing how will you feel? You won't feel good at all. "If my heart is still with my ex, what will you do?" This kind of joke is never accepted for me. And I am telling you serious. I not going to repeat myself the same old thing anymore. And I can see everything clearly. Talk is cheap, every action counts and means a lot.

Treat someone the way that you expect the other the treat you - me
What goes around comes around - me
If I never make noise doesn't mean I don't care - me
If I never mention things doesn't mean I don't know - me

2010-05-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

11 May 2010, my last post was around 5 months ago?

okay. what is good and bad about 11 May 2010?

It was a terrible tuesday for me. Lots of things happened. Early morning was so pissed off, then continue all the way until afternoon, thought it will ended the heat but things do happen to me again. Late afternoon I was being told off regarding my coding thingy, what I couldn't care less about it because I have given up. They had overestimate me seriously yet paying peanuts, really I mean real peanuts. S$450 per month is like wtf? okay fine when I go there to learn new stuff, but the fact is I did not, making me do the all the stuff that I don't like at all. Programming. I just want to warn those going internship when comes to coding, the codes in the real industries are so much more complex. so be warned.

2009-12-20T14:15:00.003+08:00

this week is a surprise week for me as well as for my friends.

first thing that surprise everyone is i have step into relationship path again. the girl whom i knew since 12 dec in my workplace. my colleagues trying to make us an item, and we are officially together on 18 dec but did not much ppl know about it. wanted to keep low profile but seems that all my action alarming everyone.

all things started by nagging each other on phone calls since monday, i keep nagging her and she also keep nagging me for the past whole conversion, i keep thinking to myself why i doing this? tuesday met her out and paid for dinner, friday brought her lunch since she is too busy until no lunch break and i don want to see her not eating at all so trouble myself, but it's okay.

she is very happy with me around, and for past few days i don know why i will keep accompanying her. but seriously speaking i enjoyed with her accompany which kind of giving me the feeling that i will be guardian angel for her. i hesitate when i think of "what if me and her will become an item??" due to phobia for relationship, but she have unlocked my heart which no one will. usually is i unlock other girls heart but this time is rather both ways. quite a rare chance this will happen.

now my concern is the future, not the past. letting all the past bygone. she have plans already for the future, by right we will be officially together on the May 2013 but the "sooner of later" thing made us together on the 18 Dec 2009.

fate bring us together and the rest is up to us to decide, nevertheless we have set goals already.

that all for my relationship thing for now. thing will get better in the future.. ((:

later going out to meet her for lunch and buy tidbits for jun wei bbq.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.
-- Thomas Merton

2009-12-16T15:46:00.002+08:00

monday - went to polyclinic @ 11am. first time ever the service is so fast. 11.30am get medicine and go le. got mc also but went to school instead. need catching up school work.

tuesday - rushed to school in the morning and realize that i forget to bring charger!! argh! so have to go back home and take @ 12pm, had lunch at home. presentation for java ee project is like totally cannot make it for my group, but still at least better than nothing. met gina at bugis at 6. walked around there and had dinner at mof. after the dinner gossiped about those ppl in the arcade. who to watch out for etc. it's like tcss session. went home around 10 plus. ((:

today - never go to school because of mood swing. early morning wants to charge phone CANNOT charge because my dad unplugged my charger for no reason!! hey, the plug is so difficult to plug leh!! not our 3 pin plugs, it the 2 pin flat one (used in USA, Japan etc..) wasted lots of time trying to plug in, but in the end forget it and went back to sleep.

If I could give you one gift, I would give you the ability to see yourself as I see you, so you could see how truly special you are.
-- Author Unknown

2009-12-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

this week feels very bad, do whatever things are just plain unlucky....

yesterday late for poa lesson, it like late until might as well don't come that type. and again same old excuses, bus came very late, i know this is very hard to believe but the fact is true. i have to admit that i woke up late also. so rushed down to bus stop @ 12.15pm, bus came at 12.45pm. ridiculous right?? 30mins leh!! fine, then the china bus driver really cannot make it!! bus jerk like hell. brake is free one leh. making my stomach stirring inside, feeling so nausea.

after the lesson, went to kbox with cs, ck, wh, wc, alan, zy and beng! sing till 7pm. i fell asleep halfway, was too tired... anyway, having fun! had a mini photoshoot at the coffee shop!! LOL!! went to arcade after that till 10.30pm!!

today not again i am late. woke up late again!!! argh!! had a test today, MCQ only but manage to score 12/20 which is not bad considering i never for the test at all. done the test within 6 mins.

realised that i had lost my mouse when in the tutorial lesson! feeling very sad lor.. then think of it i remembered i dropped something during the 10am lecture. rush down to lecture hall but there's lecture going on so cannot find it. i thought was like gone liao ar... )): super sad lah!!

tutorial finish le i rush down to look for it again. really lucky, found it under the chair i always sitting! then went to find a room for java ee tutorial, it was a e-tutorial, so i can't catch any words that teacher says. then slowly fell asleep..... sleep until 5.30pm...

home sweet home... hopefully next morning doesn't spoil my mood, sorry guys if i have offended u. just really not my day sometimes.

You cannot control the world outside, but you can choose what you will bring into yourself. If you do not see anything of value in your life, begin by finding one thing of beauty every day until it becomes a habit.
-- Ron Rathbun

2009-12-08T08:31:00.002+08:00

my birthday is over, for the past few days, i have been enjoying... what i can say is one of the best or rather the best birthday i ever had. i love the present! it's the efforts that counts.

very very tired overall....

also, accompanied yp to purchase his DSLR. a stepping stone for professional photography. he took quite a lot of pictures on that day itself.

what i can say is.. THANK YOU GUYS!!!! ((:

Don’t limit yourself. Many people limit themselves to what they think they can do. You can go as far as your mind lets you. What you believe, remember, you can achieve.
-- Mary Kay Ash

2009-12-01T22:46:00.003+08:00

got my phone yesterday... what i can say is very very nice!! the front part looks like glass. loved the functions... so advance until quite difficult to use. overall is good, built quality is there (made in japan anyway) finally back to exotic phone bandwagon! local phones seriously are boring... so sorry to say that!! my phone led indicator was so cool!! but there's minor problem which seems to be big.. signal tends to be unable. will need to check with the seller what's going on. now the phone is rejecting my sim card! cannot use! argh!

late for school today, catch no balls what's the teacher talking about. java ee no lesson, teacher on mc. sweng is boring!!!

went out with yp today to orchard ion and then marina square to solve my phone problem.. after that headed to jaben to try out the JH13 Pro custom, i can say is very very nice sounding but no money to purchase it.. )):

headed to funan looking for DSLR. poison time!! yp was looking at it. not me.. let him decide what he really needs for the camera investment..

back to home after that.. ((:

Success is getting what you want; happiness is wanting what you get.
-- Ingrid Bergman

2009-11-30T01:31:00.003+08:00

the worst thing that i ever done until now, is regret....

when i regret, there is no chance for me to turn back. i can't stop the clock. i can decide a lot of things. things just happened, i have no control over it and i wish i had.

whenever u did the correct stuff, ppl tends to praise u like no tomorrow. but once u made a mistake, ppl will just pull u down until u climb up at all. it's all about impression. good impression don last, but bad impression do. we tend to think more of the negative way rather than positive, by looking at ppl, why just can't we look upon the good points? everyone can accept all the good points that's for sure. bad points why made it just bad? can't we think how are we going to accept it, and not pulling others down..

my teacher once told me "good ppl are meant be the the ones losing, but continue to be good and u will realise that things naturally will be even better"

true or not i cannot conclude. i used to challenge the authorities and in the end i myself losing out. i will kept thinking why i lose out and continue to fight for my rights. in the end, still lose. now i think this way, no matter what i do, there are some ppl will be against me and yes, i accept the facts. in the end i bite the bullets and listen to the rules applied..

"if u can't win them, join them"

win is no longer in my brain dictionary, because i just cannot win.

so yes, i myself have to accept lots of facts which i really didn't like but no choice i have to. the time will help me to accept it. if time doesn't even wants to help, i really can do nothing about it...

in every sec, i kept asking myself why, why and more why. i can't get any answers at all.

2009-11-30T01:19:00.002+08:00

today's work is extended.

by right is from 1315 till 1915. but Eileen today mc so i have to cover her. so work until the closing.

as a usual sunday there's animal kaiser tournament. it was still chaotic as b4. this time round got round 3. usually is round 2 so i have to host the tournament for round 3. not so bad lah. total 14 ppl only...

recently was busy like mad.. feel like kinda shortage of manpower. lots of part timer quits and left with a very few part timer only... so sian..

after long long hours of work.. headed to yishun to collect my ipouch. saved 10 bucks if buy from shop front...

tml no lecture so only have the night class... and hopefully can get my new phone by tml... waited for so long..

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.
-- Fredrick Koeing

2009-11-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

my pocket is bleeding!!!

yesterday had a mahjong session until 6am morning! so tiring and reach home @ 7 to get some sleep. lost 32 bucks. sian...

went to school for the make up lecture. thought have attendance so go lor.. but never take attendance at all!!! sian again... should not go to school if i know they are not taking attendance...

saw a very nice keitai (jap phone) for the past few days on the internet... thinking of getting it in a few weeks time but but but... there are ppl selling online forum already!! so gian!! faster than what i thought. this time really giving up on local phone, the design just simply no match period.

now my c905 is official named piece of junk. warranty is not covered by sony ericsson. got warranty card and ida stamp doesn't make it a local set. so getting rid of this junk in few days time.. time for jap phone once again since 2006 i got it. pocket really bleed... )):

You find yourself refreshed in the presence of cheerful people. Why not make an honest effort to confer that pleasure on others? Half the battle is gained if you never allow yourself to say anything gloomy.
-- Lydia M. Child

2009-11-24T00:50:00.005+08:00

had a accounting test today. have to admit that i did not study for the test at all... but still, i find that the paper is still not so bad.. cannot say is easy or hard.. i manage to do all the 3 questions btw.. the test weighs 30% for the total overall. which is a lot already.. my target is just 20% for the test... had a light lunch @ mac in school, just nuggets only, free one..

did not went out for the 3 hours of break, stay in school and slack until 1840... done the assignment 60% only, not so bad, just need to do touch up etc.. the contents is done so it is rather easy to finish it up i think..

after the night lesson went to S11 for dinner. tried the japanese stall today, not so bad for the price itself.. edible lah.. had a small chat after that..

home sweet home @ midnight...

Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings.
-- Ralph Blum

2009-11-22T10:23:00.002+08:00

lots of things are fated. whether things goes right or not it will be ultimately depends on the person itself. for my case is really ill-fated.. maybe it's my own fault that i did not manage it properly. sometimes i lose something which i aren't supposed to, it is unfair to me. and yes, life have been always unfair.

in life it always an up or down. but for my case, it have been down for more than 1 year... when i will see a rainbow? i don't know. or maybe i never will. i have lost my smiles since i entered poly which is last year. i still couldn't get back at all. most of the times, or rather i am sad or feeling down, i will kept it to myself. i know who are the ones really care, u know who u are, don need to mention.

it's my own character to be kind to ppl, but there's still some of them really taking advantage of it.. i have to admit that humans are greedy for everything they desired for. i always being the ones giving in and i don expect any returns. maybe i am a giver. not a taker.

i always can't get the stuff i want. especially something that is priceless. those thing i want that can be bought by money eventually i will get it, that doesn't mean i am so rich, it just that i am getting poorer after getting those stuff.

anyway. thank you so much for this, it's really cute and edible.. although i can't really smile anymore but still it will make my days better, i really appreciate it. and so sorry for creating so much trouble. )):

2009-11-21T02:03:00.003+08:00

it's friday!!!

early morning lecture can't sleep at all. got course coordinator spot check... sian.. was so freaking tired.. got year 3 students came back from overseas attachment sharing their experiences.. but the way they talk doesn't convince us to go leh...

i not going oversea for attachment anyway... i rather stay here!! ((:

today watched 2012 with wh, cs, edelene, lw and 3 others from 0803 (sorry guys, i didn't know ur names) @ The Cathay... even though i wanted to go into The Grand Cathay, but nvm.. overall it's good anyway.. ((:

quite a long movie, but nevertheless, it is one of the decent one that i have watched this year.. ((:

before movie starts, went to the prize stage (i think) to catch a medium sized doraemon for baoyi.. ((: spent 9 bucks this time round.. not bad huh..

after the movie, we all went to cineleisure... going all the way to level 9.. wanted to catch more toys in the end it doesn't attract me... but there's is tatty bear (metoyou)!! still i don't want to catch it at the moment..

have a dinner @ amk jubilee s11...

after that the usual hangout for me @ arcade for a moment... met baoyi and passed to the cute cute doraemon.. hope u like it ((:

wh today suay.... kanna scammed 3 tokens.. the jubeat machine locks up after i played finished.. LOL.. anyway, he will claim the credit on sunday... so doesn't lose much..

that all for the quite a long day..

2009-11-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

raining period recently...

had a Java Enterprise test @ 3pm. the test itself contribute 20% to my grade.. well.. it is open book but it is so difficult especially spot the errors. 8 errors i manage to pom 7 errors. not sure correct or not... sian half, photo hunt is much easier than this LOL. ((:

after the test, there's is a presentation, my group is not selected. so far only 2 team really go present, the 2nd team presentation was so long winded! both of them takes up about 1 hour of the time..

after presentation, it is still raining.. we go sweat a bit. played basketball at the basketball court. play until we sweat. after that when we are about to go, the rest came and then continue to play. played until 7pm...

as usual after 7pm i go play jubeat again! vs the pros once again like yesterday. always the last place but it's okay. quite fun to play with them.. played until quite late today.. but total spending is much less than b4 considering the hours i spent to play. overall, good game. LOL..

tml have presentation. not sure what to present about. so sian..

2009-11-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

for 2 days... i have been feeling emo...

lots of things to handle now. projects, projects and more projects.. tml having test @ 3pm.

even now playing jubeat can't make me that happy as b4.. not to blame anyone. really. i do everything my best within my abilities that's for sure yet i still can't achieve the things that i want. maybe i need more time. time will tell everything but when?

before school reopen i was looking forward to go to school. but now.. things have changed. i can't hide myself forever. lots of things happened to me recently.. )):

i want to be happy as b4, but how? there's is no solution for now..

"Where there's a will, there's a way"

2009-11-15T18:59:00.002+08:00

worked 6 hours today.... no break at all.. handed the 1st ever tournament. overall not so bad.. time passes very fast and see them challenge very fierce..

then got 1 new staff never come. so it's like short-handed. customers just can't wait... and i was so hungry... wanted to faint le.. there's no time for me to go buy something to eat.. )):

luckily joan came and tell me that can go back le.. i don mind to extend my working hours actually..

2009-11-15T02:48:00.002+08:00

just finished my work for the day...

assigned to be cashier and it was so busy until customer have no patience to wait for their turn to top up card, change money etc... had dinner as usual at s11 big mac center.

nothing much happened today. just very very busy and tired.. getting ill sooner or later.. )):

2009-11-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

This week like spending too much le.... LOL. left with nothing for friday.. sian..

total spent at arcade is around 40++, food around 60++, transport pathetic, 10 bucks only.... school now quite stress.

today went to play jubeat again... kind of addicted yeah?? scored 1 song excellent grade yesterday and 2 songs excellent grade today. Just nice, saw a cute doraemon at the toy catcher machine and very easy to catch. So i went to catch it and got it.. never been so easy to catch b4. then gave the cute doraemon to baoyi as a belated birthday present ((: yeah, it is very very late i know! i hope u really like it. ((:

went to zone x to check my schedule. sat and sun got work. sat will be afternoon shift all the way till closing which is 0145... sunday is better. 12 till 6 only..

suddenly the extreme weather changes are here again, making me so sick and tired.. )): no appetite for dinner when i reached home.. having headache and feeling very very warm and humid.. )):

tml need to do presentation and wake up early, haven't prepare any slides yet! ... totally broke for the week )):

2009-11-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

went out to bishan cc to do project. although do very little, but still manage to do some work...

after that went to orchard with zy, joshua and wh. wh is looking for new outlook so joshua helped wh to choose some outfit. really, the overall result is not bad. very fresh look, but the hair not done yet. joshua will help him to take care of it.

had late dinner at bk orchard, quite late already so nothing to eat. went inside the huge christmas tree, the inside was so nice! go to my facebook to view it... ((:

short day...

2009-11-07T00:08:00.002+08:00

as usual school is boring for today.....

zy treat me zhi char! nice dinner anyway. place at bet with him for his btt in the end i won. he has to retake again!! LOL. 60% confidence = fail... 100% also fail... 90% will pass... basic theory doesn't mean it's easy... although i passed both basic and final for 1st attempt. ((:

went to play Jubeat again. this time round spent slightly less... $6 for around 1 hour game... played with pro, 4 ppl local play is really fun.. although lose lah, but overall is fun. because never play 4 ppl together b4. played until around 11.15pm.

went back home after that. staring at computer...

2009-11-02T00:49:00.002+08:00

closed a deal today, yet the credit card installment thing cannot go through. wth.. if not today got 1 sales..

sales was very bad since yesterday. yesterday was poor crowd, today the crowd with like.. "Let me consider" that kind.. no luck at all.

anyway, declared today will be last day working for promoting sony vaio. getting very bored already.. forget it bah, nothing is fair. i give up the job everything settled. after work still need to report sales every time, and the last of the week will need to submit survey and report. so troublesome, but anyway, i declared myself a promoter. the time and effort i made is the same as getting normal pay although it may sound attractive... commission wise i don really care about it, still have to wait for 2 - 3 months to claim commission?? forget about the target lah.. 3o sets per month is impossible considering i working for only 2 days per week. work so hard in the end i myself is the losing end. they just throw any number and expect us to hit? worst is the brand i am promoting is the most expensive among all. comparing spec to spec wise.. difference is as great as 70%!! but i have to say sony design is nice (i still prefer mac design). lenovo, acer, hp and compaq are selling well. 1 sony sold = 10 other brands sold. do the maths.

now the next thing is windows 7. customer keep looking for computer with windows 7, the problem now is only less than 20% of the computer are preloaded with windows 7. so what's is the big hooha about windows 7? customer simply dislike vista. but do they know that windows 7 is based on vista? they don't!

LED LCD vs LCD, jargons are getting more complexed. there is no such thing as LED LCD for computers YET. LED backlight yet, LED LCD NO. customer feel that LED LCD is the in thing where they don't even know what's that. the real LED LCD for computer will be AMOLED display. not whatever LED LCD. getting more frustrated when customer wants when thing doesn't exist, if i lie to them, they will come back and complaint. very good example of "LED LCD" will be handphone display. believe it or not is their problem.

2009-11-01T02:17:00.002+08:00

again, no sales today due to bad weather(what an excuse). very poor crowds today. whole day thinking whether to continue the promoter job or not. i have decided, to quit! every week need to report here and there. even after work still need to report. somemore got internal conflict with one of stuff. but it's okay, everything will be fine after tml.

even though sony is paying higher, but the time i spent outside is just doesn't satisfy the amount. i made a calculation. zone x vs sony the pay difference is around $100 per month, for $100 to make my life easier, i rather don earn it. everything settled. back to zone x, although the pay is not much, but it makes my life happier and job is more stable. ((:

2009-10-30T01:29:00.002+08:00

past few days had been playing jubeat. met some nice buddies to play with.

things doesn't seems to get it right. things doesn't work when i needed it. yesterday both of my computer crashed for no reasons. school still the same old thing. projects and more projects. seriously i need a break. but i can't because there is no time for me to have it. after my work still got lots of things to do. shall i quit my job? that's the question for now. i never been so stressful as i did before. )):

2009-10-28T19:59:00.002+08:00

not sure now things are getting better or worst. there are lots of thing for me to do. tml will be a mini presentation reflection on last sem projects. haix...

work have been extended for 1 more month, shall i continue to work or go back zone x to work? i really have no idea. one the pay is higher than the another, but i have conflicts with colleague at hougang mall. so stressful. but no choice i have to choose, see how for this week performance than decide bah. most probably i will continue for another month. need $$ badly now.

2009-10-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

it's time for me to have a cool down period. been ages that i get frustrated so easily for no reasons. computer not working, i get agitated. i am not like this, since the last sunday incident, i became like that. i wish to go back the original self. sorry guys if i have offended anyone.

went Arcade for Jubeat session. this time is maybe 11 rounds? I lost count. more or less feels better. music is one of things that will make me feel very relaxed. Jubeat until the arcade closes. but the last round I played so badly, the 2nd song i failed. it's the 2nd time that I have failed Jubeat ripples. 1st time can give chance, but playing the most hardest songs ever. the 2nd time really no excuse even though i do not have the song yet. level still not high enough. only Silver Fox grade.

I have to say that this year October is not a nice month for me, nothing goes well. really.

Work + School = Stress x2 combo.

2009-10-24T23:20:00.010+08:00

work yesterday and today @ hougang mall.

sold 1 compaq, 2 acer, 1 toshiba and 3 sony vaio....

only sony vaio have stocks for preloaded win 7. so it is easier to sell, pricing wise getting more competitive also. not bad lah the day for today.

have late lunch at the hougang plaza there. didn't know that they are so many things to eat at hougang.

today was getting very pissed off, getting scolded for no reason. initially sold 3 sets of sony vaio i wanted to stop, then by luck got another 2 came and buy. whole day was so pissed off and having conflict, i kept quiet and did not say anything about it. anyway, next week is the last week to work for sony. why should i bother so much about it, i make sure those customer buys sony vaio and even buy another brands, i will not put under his name.

pissed off.

2009-10-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

had a lunch at nebo after lessons. then played RPG board game, quite interesting, but i forgot the title. zeng yan won the game in the end, was just lucky only.

went to arcade for a short while, then took train to jurong east international business park the strategies building for product training, Sony launching new VAIOs and all of them is preloaded with windows 7. quite cool.

feel very sleepy now. tml and sunday still need to work.... )):

2009-10-23T01:18:00.002+08:00

22 oct is the day for launching Windows 7, did not went for midnight party @ challenger funan.

also, 22 oct is the first practical exam for o levels, so ppl taking o levels, do ur best! don give up, with efforts, all of u will get good results!

today went to kbox with wh, wc and zy after school...

had dinner TWICE... feeling so bloated... ordered 2 glass of ice lemon tea and 2 jugs of lemon tea for the 3 of us, and 1 jug sprite for wc..

sing quite a lot of songs, but for me i still not very sure most of the songs lyrics... and my chinese is like private limted... LOL!!

went home about 11.45pm.

school projects are getting piled up.... ):

2009-10-18T04:18:00.002+08:00

just came back home.... sales for today is not bad, sold 1 pc.. better than nothing again.

went out with jw, may, jr, sk and sk friend after my work...

went to standard place yishun dam, today got much more cars... maybe it's deepavali that's why...

ate dinner + supper at yishun coffee shop.. noodles was not bad lah..

back to yishun dam again chit chat blah blah blah....

i have to say, old Honda Civic is really that good... no wonder until now they are still keeping it.

2009-10-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

today wake up early again...

worked at millenia walk instead of hougang mall. however today, never score zero, sold 2 pcs of laptop today. yeah! BUT OT for 45 mins because the one of the customer came at 9.. which i am supposed to go already but since they buying, i don mind staying longer.. not getting paid also. but got small commission so it's still quite okay.

had mcdonald mcvalue lunch mcspicy today... town area the food is really expensive so no choice have to mcdonald.. ):

i was so bored after my lunch break. so surfing the nets around see got any new stuff or not. but still it is so bored! well, i am getting paid to learn.. ((: using the highest end Sony laptop feels good... very fast and 6GB of RAM, 256GB of SSD is imba for performance... and somemore weights only 1.48KG with 13.1" LED LCD 1600 x 900 high res... ((:

2009-10-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

happy belated birthday to Alan!!!!

went out today with cs, wc, wh, alan, lw, edelene. anis and nurul joined us later part.

had dinner at raffles city shopping center, shokudo or something. the food is not so bad for the price. then go around the area and walked around....

settle down at starbucks and had a drink there.. sit down and relax relax... then went home... just came back only.

tired..

2009-10-14T19:59:00.002+08:00

no work today..... wake up very early today, no electricity in the morning!! so hot! electricity back on the afternoon, went back to have a quick nap again. then went to arcade for Jubeat, not so bad today not much spammers. but spent 14 bucks.. anyway, having fun so it's quite alright.. ((:

signed attendance for yesterday's work, forgot to write it yesterday... then grab some gundam sleeve for wh, cs and zy.. passing it to them when meeting them.

nothing much today... (:

2009-10-13T23:58:00.004+08:00

getting more and more pissed off for past 2 days.

timetable is out. not so bad i think, still got night lesson, somemore first day. but cannot complaint much, the timing overall is better than sem 1. school opening soon.. 19 oct is the day!! looking forward...

today almost closing that time I still shocked to see 5 credits in the Jubeat machine, =_=, told them properly and they told me off, shouting at me! i was like, thinking... giving them advise and still have the cheeks to tell me off! okay lor, I bear with it. they still take their time, confirm they did it on purpose one. So I do my work finish and go play one round. after finishing the game, i still still them having 1 more credit inside the machine. So in the end i play 1 more round and christine turned the machine off! good move. it was 2330 already. by right the machine should be off at 2300 sharp. by giving them allowance is very good already. they still like that. i can't do anything at all.

plain unlucky... )):

2009-10-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

what a bad day today.. 4 ang mohs came to the counter and bought 4 card total worth of over $50 bucks and after they bought it, they demanded refunds. what the??? then I told them there's not refunds and keep shouting at me for refunds, telling me stories here and there blah blah blah, keep blaming me that I did not told them that the neoprints and toy catcher machine are using coins. the problem with them is they did not even ask. so i asked them to wait, wait and wait. then just nice that so many customer top up card at once. my manager helped me to settle them by returning cash with forfeits. keep insisting that wants the money back. this incident make my whole day bad, i don't want to get angry over small matters.

now worse part is, the card reader broke down twice! can't really do anything about it, unplugging here and there, in the end okay already and happened again. finally sort of like fixed.

what a very bad day today. this whole month my luck was terrible.

2009-10-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

finally sold 1 pc today!! although it is the cheapest model among sony vaio... but still, better than nothing. today time passes faster than yesterday.. getting tired and more tired this few days. tml will be back to zone x amkhub.. then fri, sat and sunday will be selling sony vaio, hope to be at hougang mall again.. much better than millenia walk! nearer to my house somemore!!

going to rest for the day, getting more emo day by day....

2009-10-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

work, work, work and more work!!!! getting more tired and tired this few days. still again today no sales at all. worked at hougang mall today instead of millenia walk, last minute changes but it's okay. nearer to my house and crowds flow is better.

been feeling very down and emo this few days. i don even know what's i am thinking about. everything seems to be unsuccessful for me. all my wishes and dreams are shattered. )):

i have to keep myself busy so that i can stop thinking all the nonsense. hope things will get better for me. i am no longer my own self.

2009-10-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

what a tired day today. worked at millenia walk harvey norman, for the past 9 hours, it is like a dead town, i served less than 10 ppl!! the sales for today is like ..... errr.... 0 laptop sold.

woke up as early as 9am. went out at 10.45am. took bus 261 then 133. omg, the bus journey was that longgggg.... total of 1 hr and 30 mins. should take 45 then 133 instead or rather 55 then mrt to city hall. but nvm then.

at least i learned about laptops today. other brands also. seriously, i don't wish to go back to sales line but i had to. it's all about $$$. now what i can do is bit the bullet and stop whining!

have spent too much $$ in the end now have to work so hard just to put the $$ back. money is so hard to earn. )):

now it's for me to take an opportunity to learn things in the hard way (which is always it is).

2009-10-07T23:55:00.002+08:00

today wake up early and went to international business park, the strategy building for product training... learned quite a few things from sony vaio brand itself.. basically is like apple products, they are selling the engineering and quality of the products, thus is very expensive compared to other brands, if want to buy for specs pls get other brands. every sony vaio laptops are unique..
now that i know this job was temporary only, like for 4 weeks of something! yeah! still can go back to zone x work lo.. no need to tender resignation, also can't bear to leave also. the working environment there is not bad ((:

trip from my house to ibp is 1hr 30 mins!! that is very long... okay, cut things short.

after the product training, went to amk hub with cs, wh, wc, alan and donno who's that sorry. watched movie "surrogate", quite interesting story although cs had told some spoilers. overall as usual $6 is quite worth to watch.

2009-10-07T00:05:00.003+08:00

supposed to be a quite a good day, but being spoiled because of spilled nachos cheese!!! wa lao... make me clean up like siao, make 3 trips to the pantry and mop the floor...

today went for the interview for sony vaio thing, overall was rather complicated but still quite okay... tml still need to attend for briefing at 1pm onwards......

cs came to find me and had dinner with him. LOL... overall today not so bad.. ((:

2009-10-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

for the past few days I did not sleep well..... went to Vincent's wake on friday, sat and the funeral on sun.

it was a very sad thing to be for the past few days... shed tears when sending Vincent off on sun.. have to move on.. )):

opened up new netbook today!! not so bad actually.. quite sleek.. love the adaptor, so small!

worked today night shift, not much ppl today, surprisingly it was quite empty on 2230 and all went off at 2300.. first time like that.

tml going for another job interview, will be starting to have new job on thurs onwards.. have to leave amk hub arcade on 14 oct officially... thanks a lot for letting me to learn new stuff, i really appreciate it a lot.. and they treated me well ((:

so it was like back to square one, back to sales line again. this time round selling sony vaio laptops.

that's all for today! back to sleep already..

2009-09-30T06:31:00.002+08:00

later today no work, so later will get some sleep....

going out from 5 till 4am with jun wei, may, sk, kaye... went up to mt faber.. coming down that time i skidded, almost hit the railing!!! phew!!

sent my dad to airport at 5am plus... just reached home..

disappointing day today.... so many things happened.. )):

2009-09-28T23:43:00.003+08:00

today worked night shift... assigned to be cashier again... luckily today no shortage of money or anything...

bought 2 packets of fisherman's friends for my cough (a bit siao!)... finished 1 packet.. still having cough, overall feels slightly better le..yesterday is the worst of all..

so closing that time still got ppl playing games.. OT le lah! so in the end supervisor switch off the switch and all the machines if OFF!! HAHA!! LOL... the ppl playing was stunned!! ((:

anyway, tml morning working shift, have to sleep early... zzz. (:

2009-09-27T23:55:00.003+08:00

sick, sick and sick!! first is sore throat, then cough, now headache.... what happened to me??? take 12 tabs of strepsils, mouthful of 噼啪高, cough syrup blah blah... still the same thing )):

still have to work for tml, luckily is night shift again! yeah!! i love night shift...

today what has happened is those jokers spoils the machines... first is maximum tune the steering wheel broke off!!! serious! the other was the steering wheel error... i wonder how they play the games, handling so rough.. next is initial d 5, well, not their fault, is the machine card reader having problems...

next got one couple played big sweet land until level B and a bit more then to the jackpot, they give up and got one regular uncle take over in the end got the jackpot with $16 (i think)..

worst is got 2 regular aunties keep playing animal kaiser until 2330!! we suppose to close at 2300... OT by 30mins... but they have spent $70 - $80 on the machines alone..

what a tiring day... the most tired day ever (maybe i am sick that's y)

2009-09-26T20:09:00.002+08:00

today work from 12pm - 7pm, nothing special happen today.... just walk around and do some servicing.

cough getting bad since yesterday... had same food today (kway chap), maybe i ate my favorite chips that cause me to have cough, i donno...

that's all for today... ((:

2009-09-26T01:14:00.002+08:00

okay, just reach back home at 1am. worked night shift from 1645 till 0045. very tiring ):

before work went to J8 paris miki to get my lenses cleaned up, got spots that cannot be cleaned, in the end the ppl there say use a dish detergent to clean up can liao.. i didn't knew that.. me sua ku.. now i know le.. LOL.

duty for today is cashier. made 1 major mistake.... forgot to collect money from customer when buying the emusement pass.. argh! $6 gone, see lah, customer pestering me to top up the cards faster.. ):

have a late dinner at 9.45pm @ usual place S11 big mac center. thanks anis and nurul for accompanying me!! (:

2009-09-24T23:07:00.003+08:00

called up jaben to check whether my customs earphones is back from u.s yet. unfortunately it's still haven't arrived yet.

went sim lim square and funan with jun wei and may. looking around for cameras and feel the cameras.

so while waiting for them to arrive, i went to iluma wanted to play jubeat. nvm if they doesn't have emuse pass. but what a horror to me that the machine doesn't accepts any coins anymore, i still left with 8 token, went to counter and they cannot do anything about it. argh! so waste some token on catcher machine and 1 round of street fighter 4. ):

in the end went to virtualand to have jubeat, not much ppl around, so have some rounds (3) of jubeat.

bought my favorite kettle cooked honey dijon chips! cold storage having offer @ $3.95.

going up to 6th floor funan challenger, we went round the store and test test everything.

after that went home to have dinner. met baoyi after that. something happened when i going over taking bus, i missed the bus stop and have to walk a longer distance but nvm, it's my mistake anyway. passed her some notes and went home to have a rest after that. ((:

2009-09-23T14:16:00.004+08:00

yesterday working for morning shift, from 10am till 5pm. worked as cashier.. when closing shift money counted difference of $40 less! ):

after work went to toa payoh have a haircut. really needs a haircut for very long time, changed style everything. after that went bugis have a short walk, proceed back home and sleep...zzz

Today went to the E-portal view my exams results.... disappointing , did really bad this time round, gpa dropped a lot.. ):

what a bad day yesterday and today.

No more updates from now on..

2004-09-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

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